tHe stOrie oF a sAd guRl's liFe

2003-10-25T19:14:00.000+10:00

erm.jus checkin if this is still workin.dun bother to read

2003-05-03T00:30:00.000+10:00

whoa.dunnoe wad happened.how come its pink?

2003-04-11T21:47:00.000+10:00

heyhey

i've moved!!! to www.[rainbow]hope+dreams.blogspot.com yea. toodles.adios to this blog.

2003-04-08T12:41:00.000+10:00

yawn.

so tired.been in church doin props and costumes and everythin for the easter sundae performance...goin to sing.throat hoarse alreadie.duno hu to invite to go...yawn.still need to go in tmr and celebratin steph's bdae on fri.oh no!!! so tired!

workin on mi new blog...hope i can do smthg...=0

2003-04-04T20:15:00.000+10:00

haha..relieved

wasnt actuallie feelin to good diz whole week.loads of stuf happenin! however, i jus read smthg which will keep me smmillliinng!!!

brynn..i read ur blog yaz. reallie glad dat u pasted e conversation abt [wc] on it. aniwae...u kno dat i totallie dun likez him liaoz. and yea...go for it ya!!! he's sum1 hu needs the pushin so go for it...besides, i tink he likes u too!!!...hehe.so happie for u yea...

waitin to hear the gd newz. as for me. i nort goin to bother bout such stuf liaoz. i duno la.tired.

missin him so much.

2003-04-03T12:03:00.000+10:00

tired.so tired

been so long.so sorrie.duno wad to sae.nothin much i guess.tink ern's gonna help me change mi blog.sick of diz one alreadie!.

yea.sorrie brynn

2003-03-29T11:18:00.000+10:00

YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!

what's YOUR deepest secret?
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hahaha.so farnie.luckie i duno anione called STEVE!!!

2003-03-29T11:12:00.000+10:00

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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its me isnt it?...so me!!!

2003-03-29T11:05:00.000+10:00

you have for urself a pure thug...damn they are the
best!

What kind of Boy friend do you need?
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haha...i totallie agree manz!

2003-03-29T11:01:00.000+10:00

Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

*this quiz was made by href="http://www.uinmind.com/sara">Sara

What color do you see the world in?
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ohmigosh!!! i lurve peenk!!!. woo hoo.im on a roll!!!

2003-03-29T10:56:00.000+10:00

You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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haha.i haf a lovin smile...funkie!!!

2003-03-29T10:49:00.000+10:00

your bitch.

What swear word are you?
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2003-03-29T10:43:00.000+10:00

yawn.its so earlie!!

haha...its like 8:28 am now.im awake on a lurvelie sat morn.tabi e pig is actuallie awake..haha.no la.cos me parents brought mi brothers to e botanic gardens and for breakfast.like why wld i wanna go?...so i stayed at hum and used e net.woo hoo! not gonna do much.im on a quiz spree.so im gonna take mani mani more quizzes....mwahaha...

2003-03-29T00:27:00.000+10:00

snigger

mission accomplished!shall take more in e nxt wk.so mani interestin ones manz.gr8!!!

2003-03-29T00:26:00.000+10:00

You are burning

What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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2003-03-29T00:23:00.000+10:00

MOVE to Last Vegas!! You're not going to be in a
band. You're going to be a Go-Go dancer! That
way you can listen to all that crap all through
the show!!!

What kind of band should you belong to?
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2003-03-29T00:19:00.000+10:00

FLAT

(results contain pictures) What kind of ANIME BOOBS do you have?
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2003-03-29T00:15:00.000+10:00

hmmph

lookin for quizes to take.shall trie to look for kewl ones.toodle

2003-03-28T23:59:00.000+10:00

yay.the hols are here.[quarantined]

heyz.yawnz.we gort like wad.ten daes of hols...all homework free.yay.but it SUX.diz means that e june hols wld be cut short.and we still hafta stardie and stuf.crapz.

aniwae.went to brynn hse for like 45 min todae.din do much.were supposed to do math la.but u noe...aniwae.went for piano after dat.i wanna go aussie!!!hmmph.aniwae,tryin to enjoy dis stewpid screwed up [holidae]

me parents wont let me go out to like crowded places cos of sum stewpid sars!!!wad abt mi social life.darn.so i gotta miss mi youth meetin tmr wif e rest.oh no.haha.poor alphis has got e flu.wonder if he's gort sars.nort bad!

aniwae.nothin much bout [him].kinda happoe tho.cos when i snuck mi phone for awhile yesterdae,and i msged him.he asked mi if i finallie gort mi phone back.so i asked him why and he said cos life's more interestin when i haf mi phone cos i msg him and stuf!!! hahaz.i wuz sooo happie.darn.aniwae.i oso found out dat im e person he msges e most.heehee.like when he went to china at e beginnin of e yr, he msged me every dae fr dere.and his sis told me he din even call his mom...haha.mebe im jus makin a mountain out of a molehill.aniwae, dat wuz in e past.he prob finds me a total nut now.hmmph.

yea.so bored.gonna watch e mvp last episode part1 in like 45 min time.mi bro's actin crazie.they're pregnant!!!haha

toodle.to all hu are concerned for me.thx so much kz.reallie appreciate it!...lurve u all.=) peace!!!

2003-03-25T23:30:00.000+10:00

Brown Eyes

What Color Eyes Should You Have?
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enuff for todae yarhz.tired

2003-03-25T23:14:00.000+10:00

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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what crapz canz.me lorhz.wad gf.nobodie manz

2003-03-25T22:50:00.000+10:00

You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only love in your sweet kisses.

2003-03-25T22:49:00.000+10:00

2003-03-25T22:36:00.000+10:00

hate miself. hatemiself for lovinu.

hey.had a lazie dae in skewl todae.so bored.went to jia's hse for like the entire afternoon.mum let me cancel piano and din even ask me wad time i wld be hum.weird la she.aniwae,did e lit ppt shit.damn borin.had a great time wif jia tho...=). went roller-bladin after dat.borrowed xin's blades.haha.had tons of fun seein jia run awae from e tang teacher. came hum at 645...had dinner.watched some rubbish.online now.nort chattin wif anione.so bored lorhz.

brynn's daoin me.lyke great lorhz.noone to talk to.[miserable]

told [him] about [him] but [he] din noe dat i wuz actuallie talkin bout [him].he may noe but i dunno.it's impossiblebetween us aniwae.hu would want sum1 lyke me.fark.misshim so much.

2003-03-24T22:42:00.000+10:00
hate miself.hate miself for lovin u.

2003-03-24T22:40:00.000+10:00
whydoguysonlygofortheprettygurls.whatabouttherestofus

sorrie for nort updatin for like years!!! wuz so damn bz over e hols. had a nort bad time.bought a new wallet and stuf. lost loads of sleep.yawn

first day of skool todae.haf some wishes here...
*world peace
*da pneumonia thingy

so tired.had 5 free periods todae.nort badz.poor dani had to go home cos she was nort well then e skool wana take sum stewpid precaution thingy.fark. aniwae, came home wif jo todae.we are now *bEsT fReNz*...haha.got to noe her better.felt reallie depressed.still am.wad the hell is wrong wif every1.

its like guys onlie bother bout looks and stuf.like dun they even care bout wads inside.i feel so sick and tired.i'm like a balloon which has ran out of air.too tired to go on alreadie.too much effort is needed.lookin around mi.i dun see anithin.

why.why.why.
why do i haf to like u again???
wasnt the last time bad enuff?
instead u haf to torment me all over again.
just lookin at u i noe that its impossible
i hate miself. hateit all.
how am i gonna stop lovin u.

2003-03-14T20:12:00.000+10:00
tired.so tired.

heyz.patched wif brynn liaoz.daf broke wif chuan.unbelievable.damn.tired.not well.

got 2 funfairs tmr.so sick.damn

sorrie i wasnt able to warn u.sorrie

2003-03-12T23:33:00.000+10:00
pissed off.i guess

darn!sort of quarelled wif brynn todae.she noes that jia and i dun like sum1 fr g3 lorhz.then yesterdae she so thick-skinned come and sit wif us.so jia.xin and i moved to another table to avoid her.she makes me lose mi appetite.then todae she come wif us again lorhz.cant she tell that we totallie detest her.doesnt she haf frenz in her own claz???so we din wanna eat wif her todae so we told brynn and she left.so daf.jia and i ato together then she pissed wif us now lorhz.its like she told like so mani pple about wad happened and she even wrote a letter to THAT PERSON rite in front of daf lorhz.like wad the hell!!!so she's like totallie daoin the 3 of us.so we oso cant be bothered.she can do wateva she ones lah har.

after skool.quit crezmun.germz told me it was hell.went to kfc wif daf.jia.wad the hell.met a major bitch there lorhz.she dao us and called us bitches.still there to -tsk- us...like wad's her prob.she so damn fat canz.then she talk talk to her boifren then he stare at us so openlie can.we major bitch bout them then we diaoed them and left.bitch and bastard manz...arseholes!!!hate them!

went for tuition.wuz quite fun.marcus din go again.teacher said he may be quitting...yes!.so is jia from april.darn.so i'll be all alone again.crapz

mum said i can get rollerblades.great.so bored.bye.go and bitch sumore.

2003-03-11T22:13:00.000+10:00
so much to say

just read some blogs. dunnoe wad to say.stopped cuttin alreadie.cuttin was a burden. i realize now that cuttin was makin me so miserable.dunnoe how to tell the others how i feel cos they werent listen to me either.

[fRiDaE]
went out wif brynn.daf.chuan.wei chong.pearlynn the other dae.watched chicago.almost fell aslp, music makes me slp.then went to 77th street.brynn and daf wanted to pierce their ears.so i agreed to accompanie them.so sorrie i wasnt able to go home wif u jia.end up, i also pierced.took the stud out todae, 4 days since i pierce.hurts sometimes.darn! after that, brynn.i.wei chong were at crepes.then we were supposed to help him wif his logarithm.end up i felt so extra.they were sitting together talkin and i wuz opp.them tryin to do HIS maths sum.remind me never to go again.i'm such a loser.damn.

[saTuRdAe]
went out to meet caris.nicolas.steph at orchard mrt at 1:30.i was late but they werent there yet.caris onlie arrived at 2:05!!! i waited half an hour alone!!! damn.but we went to coffee club express at holland.village.ate there, great food.but ex too.thanks for the meal caris!!! haha

had a wedding dinner at the carlton.whoa...food was good.hehe, met beks there.messed up her hair in the toiloo...so sorrie. =) haiz.aniwae jus talked to her for abit.got home at about 10+.ended quite earlie la. then slept.so darn tired manz.

[suNdAe]
woke up at like 6:45 canz.so damn earlie.followed mi aunt to church for the chinese service.quite interestin but gimme channel 5 anitime.yea.fooled ard.steph came, caris and us went to bank,7-11 and had breakfast.oh yar, nicolas too. quite fun larz. after church went for church youth service visitation.went to bethel ag. worship was go but oh man! all their english reallie stank. it wuz quite a horrible experience and their service was reallie quite messed up lorhz. no offence la.

[moNdAe]
nothin much.maths d remedial wuz cancelled so i went to holland.v kfc wif xin and jing.manage to do quite abit of catchin up.then i went to xin's house under the pretext of doin the crezmun thingy.din do anythin la.duh.oh!!! we grew 12 animals.they were from party with us and they were in these capsules thingy.we put them in warm water in xin's bathtub and watched them grow...it was reallie mushie at first. when they were done, they turned out to be sponge thingys!!! they were so nice...i liked the horse and elephant..they are so cute!!!went home and spent the whole nite chattin and tryin to do some research for crezmun...yuck!!!

[tOdAe]
lit remedial wuz cancelled and crezmun postponed to tmr.gives me one more dae to screw it up.damn.went to BK wif jing...talked somemore.came home, went for piano.cant wait for march hols.can finallie slack.

finish liaoz.bye

2003-03-04T23:32:00.000+10:00
alone.alone.alone

to the 3 of u...one called me to apologise.the other 2 wrote in their blogs. i dunnoe wad to say. i am NOT ANGRY wif u guys.i never was.i'm just reallie hurt.and the pain is so intense.but i'll trie not to cut again.u guys just left skool without me and pointedlie ignored me at the bus-stop.what other reaction could i have? ur reason for not tellin me was cos u were afraid that i would be pissed. i think hurtin inside so badlie is 10 times worse than bein pissed.and there's nothin i can do.

all i can sae is that if u think that we would still be the same. i can tell u that it is impossible. i cant just pretend that nothin happened and the fact that u guys ignored me on purpose.we would NEVER be the same again. i cant talk to u guys without remembering what u have done wif the pain stabbing at my heart like a double-edged sword.

i'm sorrie too.what can i do?

2003-03-04T23:19:00.000+10:00
alone.hurt.bad.sad

hie pple. feelin reallie upset todae.haf cried countless of times. to the 3 of u, i dun wanna name anione cos that's reallie mean. yea. couldnt believe u guys could just abandon me at the bus-stop todae. dun think our frenship would ever be the same again.dun wanna bitch so i'll cut it short.

talked to pple todae.now stonin.dunnoe wad to do in skool tomorrow.signz.not in the mood to blog.see ya

2003-03-02T21:35:00.000+10:00
attitude...whateva.busted.fatugly

hey guyz.in gd mood todae.stupid gabriel.haha...just kiddin.so bored! so fat!!! i need to lose weight.nothin much happenin.gtg.see ya soon

2003-02-26T23:06:00.000+10:00
fuck.fuck.fuck

i had the nicest and longest blog entrie of the world and the whole system got screwed up.fuck them.

shitz.gotta redo it all again wif tons of vulgarities.so damn fuckin pissed!!! i spent like half my lifetime thinkin of the damned thing.had a song for u guys.shall redo it another time.so damn pissed!

quarrelled wif mi parents last nite.cut.whats new???got abit hysterical tho.xin and cheryl...thanx for bein dere for me!luff u guys so much.xin...pls stop quarellin wif brynn.its hurtin me and jia more than the both of u think...it affects all of us.oh ya,dani...xinyun EATS!!!like a pig...dun worrie too much bout her kz.char...hope ya dun get mood swings too often.lurve the ham sandwich ur maid makes!!!haha

okie.this is gettin borin.stuf to do in the nxt 2 hrs.read blogs,d research for crezmun and oratorical.check out the lit.online forum shit
yea.dat all...i think.parents jus went out.will be back soon tho.cant they like go sumwhere for like a yr or 2?make that my entire life.

yawn.continue some other dae.toodles

2003-02-22T14:21:00.000+10:00
numb.hurt.confused.cut

hey everione out dere, reallie sorrie that i havent been updatin mi blog. jus so stressed and all and mi com has been givin me problems
so much has happened in this new yr. it's like its onlie the second mth of skool and everyone is so stressed out.cant the teachers just give us a break. jus read some blogs.

to brynn::its gonna be alrite::
read ur blog.noe how u feel.just wanna let u noe that we'll alwaez be frenz n nothin can change that.we may go thru some low points but that's what frenz are for.to comfort and console each other when we feel down. to be a FRIEND to each other.

to the rest of the world::i am numb::
i dont seem to feel a thing animore ever since THAT happened.its like i'm at a turning point of my life but i have no idea what i want.i feel nothing for miself.yes,i do cut but whats the use.its just another outlet for my frustration.im frustrated with miself.all i want is for u ppl to be happie.i dont want anythin except frenship.i cant live alone.i'll die if that happens.all i want is to be a good friend to everyone esp. my gd frens.no matter what happens i wont get angry or upset.hurt is onlie what i feel and if i hurt alone.its fine.just dont do anything to yourselves.it pains me to see new cuts each day.sometime i wonder if its because i havent been a good enough fren.that i havent been there when i was supposed to.being a friend is a 24hr job.somehow i feel like i havent been doing it well.perhaps...perhaps if i was there to talk to u.wld u have stop cutting for even a little while.i noe im not fit to say this because i cut.but maybe i noe...because i do it too.

::life::
i am not concerned for bgr animore.to me i jus wanna be a good fren.to finish and do well what i was put on the earth for.sometimes,i feel like ending everything.

::to her::
u feel guilty because of what u did.
i just wanna tell u that i'm not angry or anything.ive onlie one thing to say to u

--everything is gonna be alrite--

::my frens::
dont worrie about me.let me do the worrying.hope we stay best friends forever.

::to those hu are worried::
i may still cut.maybe even worse than before.just wanna tell u that i cant stop yet.not now.

2002-12-19T17:45:00.000+10:00
hey ppl!
just got back from sydney last nite...suffering from jet lag!
damn.i want their weather...got sun but it's so cool u dun sweat at all..and it's the summer!!!
did some shoppin there...missed u guys back here though. haha *grin*

well...only about 2 weeks left of the holidays...sob!
dun wanna go to sec 3!
hope next years juniors are okie...bleah

reallie bored. nothin to do...*yawn*
goin out to do christmas shopping tomorrow. broke but tryin to get everyone a prezzie...( hope i make it)
well, nothin much happens in tabi's borin life...haha..
well..see ya guys. lookin forward to seeing u guys again next yr!...we'll be seniors...*snigger*

toodles...lurve ya lots.
tabi

2002-12-04T12:52:00.000+10:00
Everyday when you return from your school, whether or not it is from a
secondary school, a junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would
probably think that school sucks. All that work and torture under your
lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials...

But think about this, i mean really think. All the time spent with your
classmates, all the laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that your
friends are there in your class. Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them
or even all of them. You may not realise it, but when advancing into the
next level of education, it is inevitable that some friends will be parting
with you. What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is of you to think,
for those who received this mail, what do those people who were once or were
still your classmates and friends meant to you.

Anyone who has at least finished their o levels and has graduated from
respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates
and friends. Not knowing when you still see them again. Perhaps the next
day, the next week, month, years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you would
realised how bitter sweet those memories were, the fun you had with your
classmates and friends. That is why ever so often when you asked someone
which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education, they
would often have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they smile briefly.
It's the memories of their school friends. Those unforgettable years of
laughter and happiness in school. Each classmate had suffered under the same
stresses in school. The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict.
So treasure your schooling days, don't complain, because you never know!
when you will miss them dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured
times in your youth.

Let those whom are weak and tormented in the spirit find strength in this
letter, knowing that someone still remembers them, and care for them. No
matter the circumstances.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no
evil, for you are with me -Psalm 23-

this is to all the ppl from 2c3/2002...will miss u guys alot!!!

2002-11-26T17:34:00.000+10:00
just read someone's blog....

just want to tell u that even though i might have told X some not so good things about u...it doesn't mean that i did it cos i wanted him to like mi...anione hu has been talkin to mi recentlie would noe that i onlie liked him for one freakin dae...

all i want to sae to u is that u have reallie hurt mi by saying all those stuff on ur blog...i never thought that u would actuallie do this...
i guess that everyone would think that i'm a bitch cos of ur blog...
i dun reallie care about that...it's up to them to decide

u sae that i dunnoe anything about u...that hurt too...what am i trying to do...by PRETENDING that we are actuallie good frens

i just wanna tell u that this has totally spoiled our friendship and u have ruined everything between us...
to think that u could actuallie tell everyone this without ever telling mi reallie shows me how much u treasure our friendship

i'm just sorrie to sae that our friendship has to end like this but u...
i'll alwaes remember the hurt u have caused mi todae...
i'll never forgive u

2002-11-22T16:22:00.000+10:00
i hate ppl hu are the most retarded...just read someone's diary and it sux!!!

that arsehole doesn't noe that i noe that she reads mi blog...there can onli be 1 person...so ya better listen up...i realli dun wanna go up to u ans slap ur pathetic face manz!

u sae that u are so miserable in ur diary...but actuallie ur not...u r just tryin to get attention thru ur diary by sayin that u wanna end ur sad and loseristic life! lemme tell u something kz...no one in their right mind would eva sae that they were thinkin on whether to cut...c'mon lah...give up the crap!

i dunnoe u well...but the people hu noe u noe that ur life is not like that...
pls dun follow ppl hu seem like they are depressed....the stupidest thing on earth is self-pity....
stop being so self-centred...i mean onlie idiots cut or talk about cuttin

when u are depressed...u probably won't tell anione that u are gonna cut coz u're at the lowest point of ur life and u dun want the entire freakin world to noe that...
instead, here u are happily announcing that u felt like cutting

at the end of ur entry...u sai that u didn't
i'm glad u chose that route...but pls dun eva think of doin it again...

i mean...c'mon...even if ya wanna do it....
give the rest of the world some peace lahz!

yea...aniwae to the rest of the world....pls dun eva start cutting!!!
it's addictive...aniwae, after a while, the effectiveness wears off...then u would hafta go for stronger doses...it's just the same as drugs!!!

so...to that person...reallie hope u noe hu u are...dun eva wanna see anythin like that again...

p.s---everyone despises ppl hu cut cos everyone else does it!!!

2002-11-21T16:49:00.000+10:00
hey pplz...
actually typed something the other dae..but mi com wwent siaoz...aniwaes...

i'm crushless nowz....gd for me...
aniwae..in gd mood dis days..very happie!!!...dunnoe why..well, at least it's a change from bein depressed all the time!!!
yay!

hmmph....nothin much to do..gotta do some last minute shoppin for the trip in 2 wks, then slack somemore....
can't believe i actually did h/w liaoz..haven't finish lah..but for those hu noe me...can'timagine ritE???...
tabi bian guai le!!!
haha...see ya
real happie!

2002-11-17T23:02:00.000+10:00
oops!....i've been a bad gurl...

dunnoe whats wrong wif me lahz...wateva!...

well..aniwaez...saw g in church todae...blah blah blah

yea..be back sometime in the nxt few days

2002-11-13T18:15:00.000+10:00
hey ppl....
damn tired now manz...

slept at 3 last nite and woke up at 6 dis morn...
couldn't sleep coz i was thinkin of him...
after i could sleep...i kept dreamin of him
end up wakin at 6...sux lah

damn tired...
andrew doesn't noe the meanin of bein tired
we played like 1 hour of tennis+1 hour of badminton...
i damn tired manz

xinyun and hui min just came to collect xin's racket...
feelin abit sad
thought they would stae for awhile...but they were too involved wif themselves...
oh well...

andrew oso goin offline...hmmph...nothin to do
guess u'll just stone and do mi math h/w...sux

everyone around me treats mi as if i'm invisible...
mebe i should disappear one day and never come back...

current mood: tearless

not in the mood for updating...toodles

2002-11-12T23:45:00.000+10:00
heyz ppl...i'm back...

thought of some stuff while i was bathing...( eXcuSe mE)

my emotions are turbulent

i'm cold but not freezing my fat arse off
i'm hot but i'm not boiling
i'm sad but i'm not depressed ( actually the opp.)
i'm glad but i'm not happie (actually i'm neither)
i'm grateful but i'm not thankful (actually i'm thankdul that i've got great frenz)

i hate miself and it's enuff to kill mi

not bad huh...haha....can't believe i actually thought of this while i was bathing...gross rite
shit lahz...

will be meetin A to play tennis wif him. me mom. and mi bro.
damn farnie...mi mom thinks he just popped up fr nowhere...hahaz

actually...i was surprised that he would still want to meet mi after yesterdae...
i thought he would freak out coz i'm sofreakinUGLY!!!....oh well...we'll see how things go...

damn bored sia...nth to do...just chatting wif daniel, a and kai xin
nanyang damn stress manz....even worse than crez...sji too...sad sia

well...goin now....
feelin realli horrible...

question of the dae: [+ wOndErIng...will i be missed of i were to die right now??? +]

yea...toodles!

2002-11-12T18:32:00.000+10:00
hey pplz....

snuck to ern's house after mi piano...hehe...

i'm in a good mood...but ern's mum won't let her come to stay...
parents ahz...they dun let us do stuff but they dun give us reasons....pissed manz...

i've been grounded for 2 weeks...coz i got home 45mins late from ern's house....
actually i left her house at 6....but i met A at mi house downstairs and talked to him...
luckily me mom din see me...if not she'll kill me....ahz...
so now she just thinks that i disappeared for 45 mins....damn funnie!

mi dad came home and also nv asked mi where i disappeared to...haha...
and i oso din haf ani money...so where could i go?!?

playin tennis tomorrow...A shld be comin too...gd gd...
i want to go swimming!!!
arghz. the weather has been g8 the past few days...hope it doesn't rain tomolo....
although we have to wake up early to play at the unearthly hour of 9am....sad siaz...

okie...shld be updatin again laterz....toodles...
gotta rush home b4 mi mom suspects anything....

2002-11-11T13:19:00.000+10:00
elloz pplz....must haf been quite awhile...

G is in korea...so did not see him church dis week....mebe nxt wk too...g8!
okiez...noe i'm kinda mean...but...
oh well....prob. borin u guys out rite?...sad sia...

i was feelin much betta todae...but then i got ignored...so not feelin too gd again
feelin useless...i hate and am also hated...
well...realised that actually the hols is so damn short...
will be goin to sydney and malaysia...all-in-all 2 wks...
got camp for 1 week...that's 3 wks gone...
go out abit here...slack abit there...and the 2 mths are just wasted away...
shit lahz!

feelin realli bored...nobodie nice online to chat wif...crapz.
me mom complainin bout mi maid...AGAIN!
haiz....wonder what i'm doin here...shld be somewhere else...far far away...

okiez...gotta goez....toodles!

2002-11-07T23:37:00.000+10:00
heyz pplz...realli lurve this song...check out the lyrics

it's been a long, long time since i looked
into the mirror
i guess that i was blind
now my reflection's getting clearer
now that you're gone things will never be
the same again

there's not a minute that goes by every
hour of the day
you're such a part of me
but i just pulled away
well, i'm not the same girl
you used to know
i wish i said the words i never showed

i knew you had to go away
i died just a little, and i feel it now
u're the one i need
i believe that i would cry just a little
just to have u back now
here with me
here with me

u know that silence is loud when all
u hear is your heart
and i wanted so badly just to be a part of
something strong and true
but i was scared and left it all behind

i knew you had to go away
i died just a little, and i feel it now
u're the one i need
i believe that i would cry just a little
just to have u back now
here with me
here with me

and i'm asking
and i'm wanting u to come back to me
please?

i will never forget that look upoun
your face
how u turned away and left
without a trace
but i understand that u did what u
had to do
and i thank u

i knew you had to go away
i died just a little, and i feel it now
u're the one i need
i believe that i would cry just a little
just to have u back now
here with me
here with me

every line means so much to me
i think i die a little every dae
i realli dunnoe whether i can make it to mi bdae...
hope i do...( not for the prezzies kz)

well...two red lines staring up at mi from mi wrist
beginning to think that i've got too many scars
look like shit

feelin tired
toodles

2002-11-07T14:24:00.000+10:00
harloez pplz...

lurve mi blog now...thx sooo much lil...
ya did a great job...(as usual)...hehe

well...at jia's house now...realli bored

tons of stuff happenned last nite...
supposed to talk to D on the phone after he got home fr church
but he just chatted and ignored mi
din even realize i was cryin

felt realli sad
called A...he was super tired after studyin for his O's...
so i sent him off to bed

laid in bed for ten mins...cried lyk shit
din even haf the energy to cut
i think that's bad
coz now cutting dun work animore
what next!?!

well...called xin at 11:54pm...
accordin to her clock
well...cried like shit on the phone
din haf much to sae
felt a little better after hangin up

went back to watchin [+ as good as it gets +]
the show rox manz
stupid neurotic guy fell in lurve wif his waitress
dis show is really for u manz...a aka cf

a few quotes here fr the show

he was supposed to pay her a reallie nice compliment and mean it...if not she wld have walked out of the restaurant...

him: mi doctor said that i was supposed to take one of those pills everyday in order to cure mi illness---( obsessive compulsive disorder)
her: so?
him: that day when u walked into the restaurant serving me my eggs...
that day i started takin one of the pills
her: urm...so...i missed the part where that is supposed to complement me
him: [+ u make want to be a better man +]

so cool rite...got somemore...hope i'm not borin u guys out

he's supposed to give her another compliment

him: i'm really lucky because i noe that i've just met the world's best woman....when some ppl just miss that point about u

urgh...luf the show...
well...nth much to do now...
bored...
well...see ya

2002-11-06T23:23:00.000+10:00
hi...feelin really stressed out

dunnoe why...i just decided to stop cuttin yesterdae when i was talkin to 1 of mi frenz...a aka cf...
not gonna mention his name...
aniwae...i dun think i can...
trying realli hard to but i think i'm addicted...
is it a good or bad thing?

well, i just have to see how things go...

feelin really stressed out now...
can't do anythin rite animore...
stupid sch give so much hw...
feel even worse than durin the exams...
dammit
hate this all
want it all to stop
how to?
onli can think of one way out
tryin not to be tempted...

have stopped talkin to him
noe that i dun like him animore
dun wanna talk to him
dun wanna hurt him

hate all this.
never meant to hurt anione.
wish it was me instead

sad and frustrated

2002-11-05T23:08:00.000+10:00
hEyz...beEn sO loNg...

decided to type normal today...feeling realli empty and down...
quarrelled wif mi mom and aunt todae...cut again.
hate miself.
hate mi life
just wanna end it all
can't do anything right animore
hate it all
wish i could do something
need someone to help mi
do not like him animore
cannot forget the other person
hate miself
want to let it all go
someone just listen to mi last plea for help
pls

2002-10-30T23:34:00.000+10:00
hArloeZ...weNt oUt wiF bReNda aNd laUra tOdaE...hAd loAds oF fUn..

feEliN boRed nOw....tOkiN oN thE phOne wiF hIm...oH...hE's coMinG onLinE nOw...

soRrie...gTg...mI paRenTs on mI cAse...dammIt...

2002-10-29T23:27:00.000+10:00
hEy pPlz...fEeliN rEalliE haPpiE nOwz...

pAtchEd uP wiF sHi hUi toDae...feEliNg goOd...

i cUt mI haIr todAe...rEally shOrt anD i luRve iT...i lOok weIrd iN iT bUt thE hAirstyLe iTselF rOckS!!!
gOin oUt wiF bRenDa anD lAurA tomOlo...gTg...

2002-10-28T22:48:00.000+10:00
hEy pPlz...

diN gO tO jym oN sUn sO neVer seE hiM...hE nOw oSo nOt onliNe...hAve beEn stOnIng thE whOle dAy...xIn yUn cAme hOme wIf mI anD wE wAtCheD bEnd iT liKe bEckhAm + hEartbrEakeRs...bOth aRe reAlly coOl shOws mAnz...wAtiTing fOr scRubs...hoPe i dUn fAll aSleEp agAin...haHa...

mEl gOt mI a nEw pEnknIfE anD i foUnd mI olD oNe...sO i gOt 2 nOw...gReaT!
sOme aRsehOle jUst caLled mI hOuse...bUt hE diDn't lEave hIs nAme...hOw am i suPpoSed tO caLl hIm baCk???

uH oH...hE's oNlinE...sAys hI...i diDn't rEply...okIe...gOttA gO...tooDleS...

2002-10-26T00:34:00.000+10:00
hIe...feEliNg reAlly dEpreSseD...cAn'T tAlk tO anIonE...nO oNe tO chAt wiF eitHer...

i hAf neVer feLt thIS wAy bEfoRe...dUnnOe whAt iS wrOng wiF mE...i'M dRivIng miSelF nUts!!! i reAlly neEd tO relEasE evErythIng bUT nO oNE caN heLp iT...nOt evEn iN thE moOd fOr cuTting...gOnnA wAtch MVP qing ren iN 5 mIns tiME...roTtIng aWay mAnz...

[+ hElp mI +]

2002-10-25T22:55:00.000+10:00
hEy pPlz...bOrEd aT hOme...mI pAreNts wEnT fOr pRayEr meEtIng...aT hOme roTtIng...

soRt oF igNoreD shI hUi toDae...sHe doEsn'T nOe iT bUt shE reAlli hUrT mI whEn shE saId thAt anyThing tO do wiF hEr wAs nOne oF mI bUsinEss...sO i jUst tOtallY sTayEd oUt oF hEr bUsiNess toDae...hoPe shE undeRsTanDs thAt i tAke pPls wOrdS seRioUsly...

mEt mI gRouP foR iCe-crEam toDae...fEeliNg rEalli boRed...fiNally foUnd mI frEakIng pEnkniFe...feELing sO tiRed...tAlkeD oN thE phOne till 12 lAst nIte...i'M feEliNg deAd tO thE woRlD...*bleAh...

nOthIng muCh iN scH toDae...juSt wAtchEd vCds iN thE mUsiC rOom anD hAd a vEri qUicK fiRe dRill...-b-O-r-I-n-G-
wiShIng i wEre deAd...okIez...gTg...bYez

2002-10-24T23:17:00.000+10:00
hEllO...feElinG bOreD...mI paReNts nOt aT hOme...aUntIe hEre...

xIn yUn aNd i wAlkEd fRom sCh tO hOllAnd villAgE...i feElinG vUlneRabLe...gOt plEnty of sTaRes frOm gUys oN thE wAy...aLL pErvErtS!!!...sO scAriE mAnz...uRgh...sTill gIvIng mI tHe crEepS!!!

anIwaE...i'M toTally bRoke...sTill oWe xIn yUn mOney...tOmoRroW gOing oUT...hoPe hE brIngs mOney...thOugh hIs cOusIns sAy hE isN't gOing tO!!1 i'M so dEad...i hAf deCidEd tO gO aNd meEt mI tuItiOn teAcheR's soN afTer mI piAno...hoPe mI paRentS allOw...

*sigN* mI fReakIng pEnkniFe stiLL miSsIng....toDae iN sCh...i toLd xIn yUn thAt i wOulD cUt tEn tiMes iF sHe cUt onCe...anIwaE...i gOt plEnty oF spAce tO cuT...i wOn'T lEt hEr coNtiNue cuTting aGain...dUn wAnT anIoNe tO cUT aGaIn...

i nOe i shLd bE toKing tO mIseLf...bUt i rAthEr i cUt thAn thEm...dUn wAnt tO lEt tHe pPl clOse tO mI eVa gEt hurt agAin...eVer!
fEeliN rEalLy tIrEd...hE's nOt onLinE...wAitIng fOr hIm...sO i cAn cLariFy toMorRow...feEliNg reAlly tIreD nOw...dUnnOe whEthEr i shLd caLL hIm...hoPe hIs siS doEsn'T pIck uP...enUff ruMouRs iN chUrch alReAdi...whAt thE hEck...jUz caLL hIm lAhz...

jUst gOt oFf thE phOne wiF mI tuiTion teAcheR's soN...tuRns oUt hE caN't mAke iT afTer all...wAtevA...juSt tAlkeD fOr abOut 45 mIns wiF hiM...cAn't bElieVe iT manZ...

fOrgOt thAt gAbRiEl iS iN chuRch...cAmp pLannIng...hIs sIs sAid hE'll caLl mE bAck lAteRz...bLeAh...feElin dEad tiRed mAnz...
bE bAck lAter...

2002-10-24T17:01:00.000+10:00
aRloEz pPl...i'M tOtAlly bRokE nOw...gOt nO mOney At all...i aM gOing oUt tOmoRroW wIf nO mOney...hOw?

sO dEad lAhz...alOt oF sTresS fRom mI frEnZ...sTill lOokIng fOr mI fReaKing pEnknIfe...nVm...hAf tO mAke a tRip tO tHe neAresT bOokshOp...evEryoNe iS sTartIng tO cUt agAin...dOn'T tHey nOe tHat iT iS sUch a bAd hAbIt? cUtTinG iS juSt sO sEnsElesS!!! oNly aRsehOles dO thAt...i dO iT cOz i aM oNE!

anIwaE, hE toLd mE tO stOp...i'M tRyIng reAlly hArd tO stOp...
sTill thInkIng abOut wHethEr i shLd gO oUt wiF mI tuItioN tEachEr's sOn...hE wAnts to taLk aBoUt chUrcH aNd stUfF...gAbrIel sAid thAt hE wOulD gO wiF mE tO meEt hIm...so...

iN sCh nOw...wiF reZwAna aNd xIn yUn...shI hUi fOunD oUt toDay tHat i cUt...shE sAid tHat i'M nOt supPosEd tO...whAt dOes thAt meAn??? uRgh...

oKiE gTg...bYe

2002-10-23T23:19:00.000+10:00
hEy pPl...suDdenLy feEliNg rEalLy dEpResSed...

jUz fOunD oUt thAt mI liFe iS vEry fUnnIe tO hIm...oH wEll...aT lEasT i cAn mAke hIm smiLe oR lAugH...gOoD enOugH fOr mE...
i hAte liFe...hAte mIseLf...

[+ wIshIng i cOulD jUst diE+]

2002-10-23T23:04:00.000+10:00
hI pPl...uRgh!...

tOday dId NOT gO wEll...cEpt mI adDing oNe mOre mArk fOr mAth!!!

anIwAe...dErrIck shOweD uP lAte wIf eRiC aNd wiLLiAm toDae...aFteR wE aTe aT mAc's...wE hAd tO wAit fOr yOng qUan...hU wLd hAf kNowN...hE bRouGht 2 mOre gUys!!!...6 gUys tO 3 gaLs...iT wAs tOo lAte fOr uS tO wAtcH a mOviE...beSidEs, wE cOulD nOt mAke uP oUr mInd aS tO whAt tO wAtCh...tHen tHe gUys jUst lEft wIthOut SayIng a wOrd...lEft thE thReE oF uS aT hEeRen!

i wAs iN a bAd mOod...aNd gOt rEalli pIssEd wIf thEm...iN thE eNd, mE bRynN anD bRenDa wEnt tO eDo sUshI aT cIne...wE aTe loAds oF stuff...hAd mAjOr sMsIng wiF dErRick!...anIwaE...wE wAntEd tO mAke hIm pAy fOr oUr meAl...bUt wE fElt rEally gUilty...sO we'Re nOt asKing hIm tO pAy!!!

fEeliNg pIsSed and uPsEt nOW...wE weNt oUt toDay wAs tO "cElebRaTe" dErrIck's bDae...iN thE eNd...hArdly gOt a chAncE tO taLk tO hIm...fEeliNg rEal pIsSed coZ i qUarelLed wiF mI pAreNts...jUst sO i cOulD gO oUT toDae...sAd mAnz...

tRyiNg nOt tO cUT...bRenDa sAys i sHld stOp cOz hE toLd mE to sTop...i'll tRy kZ?...
bUt nOt aChiEvIng sucCesS...hAve hAd mOre mArkS...evEry sIngLe dAe...

2002-10-23T15:31:00.000+10:00
hI...iN sCh nOw...soRrIe tO hAf neGlecTed mI blOg fOr thE pAst fEw dAes...aNiwAe...

i'M nOt goIng wIf hIm toDae...cOz hE gOt inTer-clAz sOccer...gOing oUT wiF bRynn aNd brEnda...hAhA...mAy bE goIng tO waTch a moVie...dUnnoE whAt tO wAtcH...bLeaH lAh...

will bE mEetIng hIm oN fRi thOugH...yAy...oH...thEre goEs thE bell...bYe...

mAy hAf a fIre dRill toMolo...dUn wAnna sqUat iN thE sUn!!!

2002-10-22T23:11:00.000+10:00
hI...iT's tHe eNd oF tHE woRlD...i'M deAd...dId bAdly fOR mI eXaM mAnz...duNnoe lAh..

mAy bE goIng oUT wIF hIm tomOrroE...toO haPpIE...upDatE tomOrroW!!!

2002-10-21T23:32:00.000+10:00
hI...fEeliNg mIseRabLe alReadI...hE's oNlinE...hE saYs hI...whAT aM i tO dO???

tOmorRow cOllecTing aLL oUr paPerS bAck...dOomsDae iS hEre...thINk i did reAlly baDly dIz tIMe...hOpe i dUn fAiL anIThINg...
gOT scOldeD by xIn yUn toDae fOr cUttIng...jUz tRyIng mI vEry bEsT tO stOp...i reAlly dUnnOe wHat tO dO...oSo duNnoe whAt hE's uP to...i rEally feEl tHe uRge tO cUt...bUt i cAn't...i'LL gEt scOldeD...hAix...

hE aCtuAlly wAntS mE tO cArry oUt whAt i sAid iN mI laSt eNtry...i hAte mIselF...
wHy cAn't i aCtuaLly dO whAt i sAy fOr oNCe...oK...i prOmIse tO tRy mI vEry bEst tO lEt hIm gO...hAf tHe feEliNg thAt hE's geTtiNg iRrItatEd wIf mE...whAt's nEw???

hOrriBly mIserAblE...

2002-10-21T13:31:00.000+10:00
hI pPl...jUz mAde tHe bIggeSt dEcIsiOn oF mI liFe...

i hAf deCidEd nOt tO hAf aNythIng tO dO wiF hIm anImoRe...iT wLd hUrt mE toO mUch iF i cOntInUe liKe thIs...pRetEndIng thAt nOthIng iS wrOng...whEn evErytHing iS...i wiLl aVoiD hIm fOr aS lOng aS i neEd tO...uNtiL i aM abLe tO jUz bE frEnz wiF hIm...iT iS reAlly sO hArd...i hAve rEachEd tHe eNd oF mI liNe...dUn waNna liVe iN aN imAgiNary woRld

liFe wiLL sUcK evEn mORe...bUt i dUn wAnna hUrt mIseLf anImoRE...unTiL thEn...

to [+ hIm +]----aDios amIgo!!!
sorrIe...hOpe u unDersTand tHat i dUn reAlly hAf a chOice...eiTher i diE oR i diE tRyiNg...

2002-10-21T13:06:00.000+10:00
elLo...i'M iN sCh wiF 2 iDioTs nOw...tHey kNow hU thEy aRe...

2002-10-20T22:25:00.000+10:00
ellO pPl...

sAw hIm tOdAe...iN a hAppIe moOd jUz nOw...vEry tIrEd...
bRenDa tOld mE tHaT hE cAreS bUt i neEd tHe cOnfIrmAtIoN fRom hImselF...
hE rEfUseS tO sAy aNytHinG 'bOut mI...i aM hUrtIng inSidE bUt nO oNe cAn dO anyThIng tO heLp mI...i aM feEliNg sO doWn...bRenDa tOld mI tO stOP cutTinG...i shAll tRy mI veRy beSt...bUt onLy oNe pErsOn cAn hElp mI...

i rEally hAte mIseLf...cAn neVer dO aNythIng rIgHt...alL i aM iS a shItiFiEd aRSehOle...
i dUnNit hIm tO liKe mI...i dUn'T eXpeCt aNythIng tO haPpeN bEtweEn uS...alL i wAnT iS a fRieNDshIp...i jUz neEd a liTtle cOncErn...gueSs i don'T dEseRve tO hAve tHAt aT alL...

sAd aNd tIred

2002-10-18T22:49:00.000+10:00
sOrrIe...kEeP aDding...

jUsT gReaT...[+ hE+] doEsn'T eVen cAre wHeN hE fOunD oUt tHat i jUsT cUt...jUst grEat...nO rEacTiOn aT all...nAda!
sO mUch fOr liKiNg hIm hUh?...bUt thAt's oK...i'M jUsT haPpIe tHAt he'S tAlkIng tO mE

2002-10-18T22:40:00.000+10:00
tEn mOre mArkS tO reMind mE of mI miSeRablE liFe

2002-10-18T22:37:00.000+10:00
hI...mE bAcK aGaIn...

jUz qUaRelleD wIf mE mOm aBouT aN hOuR aGo...dUrInG dInnEr...esCapEd by goIng tO tHe toILeT...
i jUz sAt iN tHe tOilEt wIf mI pEnknIfE, nAme tAg aNd sCIssOrs...
jUst cAmE uP wIf tHe pErfEct pLan...dUn'T cUT toO dEep...it'Ll sWeLl...thAn pUt uNdEr vEry hOT wAtEr...hUrts liKe shIT...pAIn iS pRoloNgeD...bUt wiLl leAve nO maRks...nOt bAd hUh...

eVeryOne thInkS tHat i hAf gOne oFf tHe deEp eNd...mAjOr sTonIng iN sCh tOdaE...i jUst tOtally hAte mI liFe...i'M oNly sTayIng aLivE fOr oNe rEasOn...[+ hIm +]...tOo bAd hE doeSn't liKe mI...jUz tHe stOrIe oF mI liFe...

iF i cOuld coLlect mI teArs iN a bOttle...i cOulD oPen a fActory...

sIck aNd tIreD oF livIng....[+ hOpe hE reAds tHis... +]

2002-10-18T15:14:00.000+10:00
i'M bAck aGaIn...gOt a fEw qUestIons fOr u gUys tO anSweR...

--cAn u dRoWn iN uR oWn teArs?
--cAn u sUffOcAte fRom hAvinG tOo mUch pRobLems?
--cAn i dIe wIthOut anIoNe kNowIng?

wHat's wrOng wIf mE? i nOe tHat nO oNe wLd mIss mE iF i gO...bUt..t...i dUn't waNnA leAve...

aNd iF sHe rUns aWay, sHe feArs sHe wOn't bE folloWed
tHerE's nOthIng wOrsE thAn leAvIng sOmeThIng bEhInd
aNd aS tHe dEpTh oF ocEanS slOwly bEcOme sHalloW
iT's oNly lOneliNess sHe fInds...

jUsT wAnna sAy a gOodbYe tO eVeryOne...wOn't bE seEIng mE fOr a lOng lOng tImE...

tO hIm...[+ i rEally liKed u +]

2002-10-18T14:53:00.000+10:00
eLLo...i'M iN sCh nOw...liFe sUx...aS usUal

i'Ve bEen sTonIng fOr tHe enTiRe dAe...i wAsn'T aBle tO gO onliNe laSt nIte...gOt reAlly pIssEd...
tAlkEd tO hIm lAst nIte...hE wAs aCtIng weIrdLy aGaIn...dUnnOe wAt's wrOnG wIf hIm...dUnnOe iF i shLd tAlk tO hIm agAIn sIncE hE aCts sO weIrdLy arOund mE...

sTill mIssIng hIm...bEen sO lOng...liFe Is sO BorIng...
hOpe i cAn haF a bEtTa weEkeNd...

2002-10-16T22:43:00.000+10:00
elLo ppL...aNotHeR iNpUt fRoM tHE iDiOtiC oNe...

aNiwAe...i wEnt bAcK tO sCh tOdAe...

iT hAs beEn oNe wHoLe mOnTh sIncE hE diEd...jUst fOr tHe recOrd...hE wAs iNvolvEd iN a cAr acCideNt iN aUstRaLiA...hE diEd oN 16 sEpt' 2oO2---aLphIs's bdAe...sAd rIte? tHe gUys wHo aRe clOse tO mE aRe alL conNecTed iN sOme wAy oR oTher...

feElinG reAlly dePreSseD nOw...beEn sToniNg tHE whOle haTefuL dAy...nO oNe uNdeRstAndS hOw i feeL...eVerYonE jUz tHInkIng tHat i'M haVing a moOd sWIng...wAteVa...

i rEally mIss hIm : [+ gAbRieL tAn jUn wEi +]... hE jUz leFt mE hEre aLL aLoNe to slOwly diE...
i hAte mI liFe...i hAte mIselF...i rAthEr i wUZ tHe oNe hU diEd...nO oNE wLd mIss mE anIwAe...

gUesS whAt...tHe gUy i liKe nOw iS alSo cAlleD gAbrIel...eXcEpt nOw i'm pIssIng hIm oFf bY beIng tHe uSeleSs iDiOT i aM....
hE wAs aCtIng vEry weIrdly lAst nIte...bEt hE wAs fReaKed wiF mE...bUt tHat's oK...aS loNg aS he'S hAppIe...

i'll nEvEr shOw hIm oR anIOne eLse tHe hUrt i'm fEelinG...coz' it'LL oNly hUrt mE evEn mOre...
hOw i jUz wIsh i cAn dRowN iN mI teArs oR dIe oF blOod lOsS...

hOpe i mAKe iT tO tHe neXt enTry...aliVe

2002-10-15T23:40:00.000+10:00
cAn u bElieVe iT acTuAlly toOk mE 1/2 aN hOuR tO aCtuaLly fInd oUt hOw tO uPdaTe mY fReaKiNg bLog..dAmmIt

oH wEll...nO oNe cAn gO oUt wIf mE...i'M iN tHe mOoD fOr mEetIng nEw ppL...sAd mAnz
jIng aNd laUra aNd mE aRe nOw tHe 3 lEetLe pEegs....yAy...
mY liFe sUx...bAck tO scHooL tOmoLo...i dUn wAnnA gO bAck tO thAt pAthEtIc mEss...

wAnnA nOe suMthiNg to pRovE tHat mY liFe reAlly sUx?
thIs gUY i lIke nOes i liKe hIM bUt hE doEsn'T gIve a shIt...jUst grEat... * stOrIe oF mI liFe *

i hAte evErytHIng...tHE onlY thingS keePing mE goinG aRe thE 2 pIgs aNd mY fBs...aNd hIm...bUT iT's jUSt iMpoSsIblE...
hE'll nEveR liKe mE...i sHlD jUst gO aNd gEt a liFe...

* mIseRabLe aNd lOneLy *

2002-10-15T12:55:00.000+10:00
elLo ppl...thIS mE fIrst tIme....bEt i sCreW uP...

liFe sUx nOw...wUz suPpOseD tO gO to eUdorA's hOusE yEstErdAe, bUt dId nOt gO in tHe eNd i dIdn'T gO...
sTorIe oF my liFe - eUdOra aSked mE, li mIn, xIn yUn aNd mEl...bUt tHinGs beTweeN uS anD xIn yUn nOt sO hOt...eNd uP i diDn't gO...i aM sO tiRed oF alL tHIs. i aM gOnnA lEt gO oF evErythIng fRom nOw oN...i wlD nEveR suRvivE lIke thIS